deactivated my facebook today. decided i have nothing to prove to anyone else, and i dont need to put on a show of my life over the internet. i hope this is the start of something new, and not just another floundering attempt to change something in my life.
if there’s one thing i should know by now it’s that nothing is ever going to work out the way i want it to.
just had the scariest heart pains i’ve had in awhile. posting this in case I die in my sleep tonight, I don’t want there to be any mystery surrounding my sudden death.
happy 4/20. although for most of us its probly more like happy “business as usual” (Taken with instagram)
Where I Belong - Motion City Soundtrack
I can’t stand the thought of losing
Everything I ever thought I that I knew
This is where I run out of words
That describe how I’m so damn hurt
This is where I fumble and fold
And take what I’m told
never cared to listen to girls generation before but just saw them on tv inadvertently…so many beautiful asian women at once i didn’t even know what to do
and the music wasn’t bad either
on the way to my dad’s house. me and jacky jack in the backseat together (Taken with instagram)
finally instagram on android :) testing it out with “toaster” because its a fucking toaster outside (Taken with instagram)
very bored, working my life away. nothing new here
neckbeard next to me is breathing so heavy. maybe his ass burgers travelled up and got lodged in his lungs
I don’t know why im so nervous to go home tonight. sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like if I had never left, if things between my friends and I would have stayed close, or if it still would have fallen apart anyway.
personal junk incoming. i feel like i’ve been neglecting the “personal” aspect of this blog, which should be the most important. it’s been awhile since i’ve posted about my life so prepare for a wall of text. if you don’t care then ignore this.
I’ve been feeling off more so than ever lately. I wish I could make sense of everything. I’m tired of feeling this way.
anxiety through the roof. im going to explode
my face when im finally getting over the flu
i haven’t smoked a cig or weed since monday night
i hate being sick